Monday 16 May 2011

And like the sea
I'm constantly from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul
As if the great divide could swallow me whole
Oh, how I'm breaking down

Sunday 15 May 2011

so mike drew my tattoo design on mah thigh… yup, getting this in two weeks time D: eeeeep

but ima have it higher up and more frontal..

can't wait


Tuesday 10 May 2011

i love you.

but i wish i didnt. it hurts too much.

Tuesday 26 April 2011

formspring.me

hit me with your best shot.

http://formspring.me/Lorrawr

Bluebird

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pur whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

Wednesday 20 April 2011

so, apparently everyones going to london on the weekend.
what am i doing? bugger all... aaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy
you bring out the worst in me

Monday 18 April 2011


weeing myself for this game...
BUT THEY HAVENT ANNOUNCED A RELEASE DATE :(((((((


i like sleeping in your bed
i like knowing what is going on inside your head
i like taking time
and i like your mind
and i like when your hand is in mine
...
and my heart skips a beat every time that we meet
its been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
but then youre back and i am fine
cos youre with me
and im in love with you
and i cant find the words to make it sound unique
but honestly you make me strong
i cant believe ive found someone this kind
i hope youll carry on
cos youre so nice
and im in love with you..

Saturday 16 April 2011

wants









oh its amusing how this morning i thought i was haunted xD

My chest pains are easing up now and I'm breathing normally again, but even still -

I want you here.
I need a distraction - you would be my perfect distraction.
Although, it is 4:23 in the morning and you'd probably be asleep.
I want you to put your arm around me and fold me into you and tell me stupid things that I'll probably only pay half attention to to make me feel better.
I just wish you were here.

Thursday 14 April 2011

formspring.me

Put some words up IN theese bitch. http://formspring.me/Lorrawr

Sunday 10 April 2011

ive developed a really bad habit

i sit there and pull my eyelashes and eyebrows out when im bored or thinking
swear to god, if i dont stop soon im gunna look an alien

on a brighter note; TOMORROW is almost finally here! (about time too)

Friday 8 April 2011

OMG HOLY CRAP

I NEVER KNEW THAT YOU CAN PLAY SNAKE WITH ARROW KEYS USING THE LOADING CIRCLE ON YOUTUBE!

the weekend already seems so much better

fuck my life

i had
-3 word documents open
- 2 notepad windows open
- 4 internet browsers open
all relivant to my college work....

AND THEN MY FUCKING NETBOOK CRASHED FOR NO REASON AND IVE LOST EVEN MORE WORK AND I CANT RECOVER IT.

I HATE THIS NETBOOK WITH A PASSION.

i think i might cry.



ffs prick, stop poking me on facebook. you dont even talk to me on chat or irl.

Wednesday 6 April 2011

i miss you, ballbag

we used to make all these wonderful and exciting plans of things we were gunna do
but now we dont talk and youve forgotten i exist..
just remember im still here when you and jack break up.
that moment when youre too exhausted and too lazy to move
SKANKY CAT IS GONE :D
Oh god. Avril's taking the cat to the vets and wants me to go with her. We're stopping at the Wok and Roll take-away... Oh god, I embarrassed myself so bad infront of the cute guy in the chinese when I was plastered... *about to partake in the shop of shame*

Tuesday 5 April 2011

Well, that was an eventful evening.

Tonight when Avril and I came home from work/college we saw that trampy stinky cat chillin in the living room windowsill so we trapped him in the house.
The plan was to take him to the vets but no, that plan went to shits and cos he was hiding under the old fashioned organ thang for hours; he was still there when we came back from dinner. He bit Mike through his motorbike glove (just to give you an idea of how ferocious he is).

Mike got it out finally and hes now sulking in a kitty box in the kitchen facing the wall in the kitchen. Its tempting to poke him through the bars but a) he'll get really asdlghsdglk >:[
b) its just mean


Oh, And I made a fort out of kitchen things
~*cant be shamed, cant be tamed*~


And we still never ate that sticky toffee pudding I made, lol probably a good job - I cant cook xD *fail as a woman*

Monday 4 April 2011

that awkward moment when youre dancing and jumping and singing shrek songs like a boss whilst your doritoes and cheese cook and the someone walks in on you

Sunday 3 April 2011

why am i awake still

ror and leelam:

ror meku and gahgah
ror meku and lucy



updaaaaaaaaaaaaaate



update from the last time i posted and whats going on in my life recently :D

i hate angie, so that post on the 19th of feb is now irrelevant, also mikes not moved to cheltenham, hes temparorly moved to live with his friend cam. and we're no longer together.

that post on 23rd june:
yeah sixthform - failed, i dropped out half way through the year.
but now im just over halfway through my first year at worcester college of technology studying travel and tourism and i LOVE it. this is our uniform:

this was taken on our first trip, which was to wales - specifically the Millennium Stadium

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oh and as for prom - that shit sucked.. 25£ ticked and 30£ dress for a plain burger (i was a veggie at the time) and some orange juice. -.-


^^lucy and me at prom, she called me bluey (i hadnt had time to put makeup or anything on "/)

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this doesnt even make sence, im too far in my own world for this shit,

as i was saying - to ms paint :D
niggah y u talk to meh?
you havent spoke to me since you dyed my hair blue and then ran off to somewhere
and i really dont care if youve got a loan or sth for uni
however, im glad youve dropped that second i, youre still a giant tit.
stop asking me shit, you dont care.
kthnxbai

im still alive

oh god, i havent posted on here in like, forever, so i've forgotten what to post :3

there is a perfect explanation;
tumblr>blogspot.
(and ive started to get a social life now)